Existential Crisis

That probably isn't the best way to describe what I am going through right now, but it works. I think what doesn't work for me with that title is the word crisis. The word implies an urgency to the situation that I don't really feel. I have simply been thinking a lot about life recently. When I read up on existential crises, on Wikipedia, they had some suggestions on what brings on the crisis.

Existential crisis is often provoked by a significant event in the person's life — marriage, separation, major loss, the death of a loved one; a life-threatening experience; psycho-active drug use; adult children leaving home; reaching a personally-significant age (turning 30, turning 40, etc.), etc.

But none of that happened to me. I got to the place I am after going to a super market to purchase some Nyquil. That event in itself is rather unimportant, but it is where I feel the story should begin (although I suppose I could start at getting sick, or even who got me sick). That said, while I was checking out I was required to show ID for the purchase. I assumed it was because I was paying with a credit card and needed an ID for that, but it was actually for my single bottle of cherry flavored Nyquil. This of course was also insignificant, but led to a conversation about why I needed to be IDed (obviously cause I am going to make Meth or whatever you make with red Nyquil). I eventually posited that all transactions would be paperless and that we would have a combined currency and identification. I didn't think that this would happen in the next hundred years or even in my lifetime so it got me on the train of thought about life in general.
But that is just the story of how I got here. For me the important part is where I am now, although the story does come back into play, but I'll discuss that later. So where am I now? Well I have been trying to determine the indeterminable. Looking for meaning in life. This is difficult question for anyone, and is a matter of faith no matter how you look at it. Whether you believe in life after death or not you only go by whatever directs your faith. Be it scientific reason, or religious reason. But I want to write about this, and so this is going to be the topic of my next few posts (or more, who knows). It is late now and so I am done for now, but I will be back, eventually.